Sunday, May 04, 2008

Seasons change...

Well we all know, simply from the fact that we live in Michigan, that seasons change....literally. But figuratively too....they change. I had a conversation today with my best friend...which isn't really unordinary but it made me realize some things. What we are going through right now may not be something we enjoy, but it's something that is necessary. Spring cleaning of sorts, I guess. We all get to the point where we are somewhere between sheer anger and being on the verge of tears. I've been feeling that way a lot lately. Lots of mixed emotions...not sure how to handle them properly. At one moment you want to lash out at everyone and everything, sometimes at the wrong person, simply because they said something you didn't like. We all do it, hopefully that unfortunate person that gets the brunt of the lashing understand and can forgive you for that.

Here is my thought provoking question! Should we be resistant to change because we're afraid of forgetting the memories we've made? Some might think so, but I think not. We don't want to lose the memories, but we don't want to be stuck in the same place forever...that would get old, very quickly. At least for me, I like things to be new and exciting. As much as change sucks, it's all a part of the growing process. Sometimes we have to move on and make new memories. It's all just a stepping stone in life. But nobody is saying that we need to forget the old memories. Unfortunately, I think the majority of our fears, anxiety, and uncertainties stem sheerly from this stage of life. I personally have never been more afraid of what the future holds, until this year. At this age, we're at the verge of still being "young adults" and becoming "real adults." We have a college education and it's almost like, with that comes this generic expectation of having to go out and make something of yourself. What if I'm not ready for that??? I feel like I'm being forced to do something I don't want to be doing. It's like mother bird is pushing us out of the nest we've loved for so long. The warm loving environment we've always known has suddenly become this cold, scary reality that is nothing like we have ever dreamed of.

What do you do when you see people making the same mistakes you did. Do you have a responsibility to tell them what is going to happen...or do you let them figure it out for themselves? That is something I've always struggled with. To speak up...or to remain silent, which is the better route to take? I don't know....I don't have all the answers. I don't even have a slight portion of them. I'm not sure I'd want them all, seems like it may be a heavy burden to bear. I have a large enough load as it is. Anyway, with that, I'm going to leave you with one of my favorite quotes, from one of my favorite TV shows....

"Change, we don't like it, we fear it...but we can't stop it from comin, we either adapt to change or we get left behind, it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn't, is lying, but here is the truth, sometimes the more things change, the more they stay the same and sometimes change is good."