I was listening to some music tonight and I heard this great song, so i thought I would post the words on here, because right now they seem so perfect. So here they are! I've been wasting time with clueless guys. But now it's over. Let me tell you why. I'm through. I've meet someone new. Just like you. You're it. You're the ultimate. It's automatic. I'm sure of it. No lie. So don't even try. To tell me that you're not the guy. Cuz I've been waiting all my life. For someone just like you. But you're it. You're the ultimate, you. You're the kind of guy who's hands and mind send shivers up and down my spine. You took my heart and put it back together again. You're the kind of guy that blows my mind. But now it's my turn. You've been right in front of me. Everything I need. It's a really good song! Anyway, the lady I'm supposed to be babysitting for FINALLY called me and I guess I am babysitting this week after all! SO that should be nice, she works 10 hour days so I'll make about 50-60 dollars a day! Which will definitely be nice at the end of this week! I need to get Beth's present, and then finish my roomates presents! Hmmm...anyway, I have to get up early tomorrow, so I think i'm gonna be hitting the sack! Until next time.....OVer and out!!!

"for I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, "plans for well-being and not for trouble, to give you a future and hope." ~ Jeremiah 29:11 That passage is what today's sermon in church was about. It was a relly good one. It fit perfectly in my life right at the current moment! Pastor Dick was talking about how we can't try to fix tings ourselves. We need to rest in God and trust him with our whole heart that he will fix evertyhing in our lives, all we need to do is ask! He doesn't give us anything we can't handle. I know pesonally that's exactly how I am. I am always trying to fix things on my own. Things don't usually work that way! I know I need to trust him with everything. But it's so hard to do!! I have had a lot of stuff on my mind the past week or so. IT was a good one, and hit right at home!!! Another good thing that happened today was that Beth and I went to cell group. That was fun, we just sat around and kind of socialized. Usually they do a book study type thing. I think the book they are reading is a book that I definitely need to read for myself. I think that it could do me a lot of good. I am definitely going to looking into the church across the street from me when I get back to school. It's just too close not to! Not to mention I think that is where Liz goes and Ashley said that she wouldn't mind going with me. It would really make her mom Happy! So we're definitely going to have to do that when we get back! Oh well...I guess I'm supposed to get up at 6:30 in the morning to call Terry-Lynn to see if she needs me to babysit. The way I look at is, if she needed me, she would have called me herself. But I can't really pass up the money. So I'm gonna get my sorry butt out of bed and call her in hopes that she does need me and that I can make some extra cash! Fingers crossed guys!! I am going out with Wes on New Years Eve. We're going to a hockey game and then to some party of his friends. But I do believe Beth is going to come rescue me! Thankfully!!! I don't really want to be in that scene. But we'll see how it goes! Anyway, I think I'm gonna go, I should probably get some sleep in case Terry-Lynn does need me to babysit! Ya never know!!! Until next time..Over and Out......... "Will I get better or stay the same. I find I always move to slowly. Can't lift a finger, can't change my mind. I never knew till someone told me that... If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time. You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind. Two points for honesty. It must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all." ~Guster Two Points for Honesty

As Jessica says all the time...life is a lot to think about sometimes!!! I think the first thing that I have been thinking about a lot lately is the fact that my brother is STILL here. I know it sounds mean, and I should be more sympathetic towards him, but hey....he's beginning to overstay his welcome. My parents baby him enough as it is, and quite frankly, its getting really annoying. He had the audacity the other day to call me a mooch. I wanted to turn around and say "excuse me, who is the mooch here?" He's the one who has been living here rent free, eating here free of charge, sleeping in my bed, sleeping on the couch all day, and not helping out around the house. At least when I'm home, I do my own laundry, help my mom with the house work, like doing dishes, and vaccuming, and I even cleaned my bathroom. He does none of that, unless he is forced to do it. It gets really nervewracking because my dad isn't in the greatest health and shouldn't be doing a lot of things, and yet he does them anyway when Justin is fully capable but just too lazy to do them! Like the other day, my brother came home for Christmas from South Carolina, and all Justin had to do was go get him from my grandparents house an hour away. He couldn't even do that without complaining about it. Then it ended up that my dad drove all the way over there by himself to get him. I would have done it myself, but I dont have a car and noone will let me drive theres. So Im out on that one! It's just really frustrating. THen tonight he comes home drunk and thinks its really funny to get on my screen name and start talking to my friends. And its not like he was carrying on a civilized conversation...he was pretending to be other people, like my mom, and asking stupid disgusting questions. Made me angry. Another thing is that he didn't even buy anyone any christmas presents...but yet took all the gifts he got. If I didn't buy anyone a present, I definitely would not accept the ones they bought for me! That made me a little upset!!! Glad I got his present the cheapest I possibly could! Grr!!! Another thing Ive been thinking about a lot lately, is that i have this friend, a guy friend, that I just can't help but want to be with. We've always been pretty good friends, but for some reason I get this feeling that he just doesn't feel me the same way that I feel him. But the scary part of it is, is that myself along with others could see me with this person down the road. They are everything that I've ever said that I wanted in someone. I don't know, but like a wise person once told me, God has someone for me...and he'll show me to them one day! So I'll just be patient...and maybe everything will work out! But on a good note, I got an email from Brandon!!! YAY for that...no longer have to worry about him being upset with me. I think things are going to be ok with that situation!! I knew they would be, we both just needed a little bit of time to cool off!! So that's good!!! My Christmas was ok....i've had better in the present department, but all of my family got together...just the 5 of us...That was really good!!! I think thats it for now!!! Until next time....over and out.......‘Cause I would give everything that I own. I’d give you my love and this heart made of stone. The sun the moon the earth the sky. The motorcycle that I like to ride. I would do anything. I would give everything. To be your everything!!! ~Stereofuse Everything

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! YAY for christmas! Don't you just love this time of year? I do!!! I hope everyone has a very very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year too!! Hope all of your wishes come true, and you spend it with the people you love!!!

It's hard to believe it's almost Christmas. I mean in like 15 minutes its going to be Christmas Eve, and there isn't a speck of snow on the ground. How can Christmas come without snow?!?!?! It's the only time of the year that I can actually tolerate it! Who knows....anyway, once again, its been a few days since ive written, and I thought it was time to update. Ive still been very very busy. Saturday, Beth and I went to a party in Lake Odessa. It was a friend of a friends 21st birthday party. It was ok. We got about two hours of sleep. Went to bed at like 4 and got up at 6 to get ready and head out so that we could be back for church in time!!!! So i was tired all of Sunday and didn't do anything! Monday I went shopping with my mom, and finished up some of the Christmas shopping. Then last night I hung out with my friend Andrew. It was cool to just get to hang with him. Then I didn't do anything today. Beth and I went and got our nails done...a treat from her mom!!!! Yay for moms! I keep finding all of my christmas presents. Lol...well i dont know for sure if they are mine or not..I just assume they are. Like the other day my brother was in the garage and I went out to ask him a question and I opened the door and there was bike in there....Who else would they buy a bike for???? Who knows...but then today i found a note on the table that said MIchelle said she could use an umbrella...pick one up if you go out today!!! Man, I'm doing pretty good...I dont even have to be snooping and I find stuff! Anywho...I guess I'm going out with Wes for New Year's Eve. We'll see how that will go. I want to hang out with him, and then again I don't. I think I'm finally over him, and I know that I'm going to like him again after then. Oh well...who knows. My mom told me not to let it go past being friends. And I dont want to, but I do like him..I like him a lot!! We'll see!!! Until next time....over and out!

It's been a few days since I've updated, very unlike me..but oh well!! Home isn't as bad as I thought it would be. I've been so busy, that I really haven't had much time to sit and be bored. I think for once, it's almost better than being at school!!! Yeah...you're not seeing things, I really did just say that! Hard to believe I know. I haven't really been home that much. Starting off, the second night I was home, I stayed at Beth's and went to church with her on Sunday morning. Then Monday I had to work in Lansing, so I went and stayed at my grandparents house until Wednesday night. I worked all week in lansing, well Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. The new job is going GREAT!!!!! I absolutely love it. It is way better than the cafeteria. I have a lot more to do there, but I am way excited about it!!! Thursday Beth and I went to Birch Run and went shopping, and then we went to Bronners! If you have never been there, I definitely suggest you go. It is one of those places where you could spend all day walking around and just looking at stuff. IT IS WONDERFUL...then Thursday night, Beth and I went snowboarding at Apple Mountain. Now if you are up for some real good live entertainment, you should definitely go out there the next time we are there. It is some funny stuff! My brother works there, and he can get me in for free, which is marvelous!!! It was a lot of fun, I definitely am going to be out there more this season than ever before!!!! It was a lot of fun, but I definitely paid for it this morning....I was so sore, heck I was even sore before I went to bed. Oh well....good times, good times. Today I went Christmas shopping and finished buying my family's presents. That was a good time...once again, Beth and I went shopping. I do believe this is our 3rd or 4th time shopping in the week that I have been home!!!! Hey, it's Christmas time, and WE LIKE TO SHOP!!!! Oh yeah, some more exciting news is that I got part of my christmas present today....a half hour massage at Shapers Spa. I am so excited about it. I need to go get a massage so bad!!! Can't wait to go! But anyway, I've decided that Ive been letting a lot of things bother me lately. And I've decided..life is too short to worry about the things that are out of your control! Like the thing I previously wrote about, Eh, I'm over it. I even sent him out a Christmas card. Now isn't that nice of me?!?!?! I still haven't heard from him..and I wish he would at least send me an email or something, maybe try giving me a call...but whatever...He has a life, and maybe I'm just not part of it anymore. Thats life, people change!! But I think thats it for now. Until next time...over and out!!

So today while I was at work, I was bored and decided to read my mail and a few other things. When much to my astonishment, I came across something that I think has solved the majority of my stress and frustrations of the past month. So awhile ago, like 3 weeks or so, I wrote about how this friend of mine was an ass and told me he didn't have time for me. I'VE DECIDED WHY!!!! It's all because of a girl! Not that I care about it...I'm actually quite happy for him. The funny part of it all is, is that we have a mutual friend, whom I was good friends with before I knew this guy. Well when our mutual friend started dating this girl, he completely stopped talking to me, except for when the girlfriend was around. Then when he dumped the girlfriend, he would start calling and talking again. Then next thing you know, I stop hearing from him...come to find out he has a new girlfriend!!! Do you see where I'm going with this???? I hope so because to be quite honest, I've wasted enough time worrying about the whole situation to sit here and type out this really really long story that can be summarized in about 6 sentences. Pretty much, this friend of mine has found a girl that he likes, and who likes him back, and hes cut ties with me completely. THe funny part of it all is, is that a long time ago when this all happened with the mutual friend, he bitched and complained about the mutual friend and talked about how big of a jerk he was, and how he didn't deserve me being his friend, and blah blah blah....well correct me if I'm wrong..but isn't that the same thing that happened here?? So yeah, in case your reading this...and you know who you are.....your a jerk, and an ass..just like you called Eric....and you dont deserve me being your friend!!! You could have at least mentioned it!!! Like my very best friend who is always there for me once said: " BOYS ARE STUPID THROW ROCKS AT THEM!!!"

I got a new job! As I said the last time I wrote. It is ok so far. There is a lot of work I didn't realize I was going to hvae to do. But hey, it should be fun anyway! I am kind of bored at home. But I've only been there for a few days since I've been home. I stayed one night at beth's house....and another night I had a Christmas party that went late and I had to get up early to come to lansing for work. So thats been it! I'm excited about Christmas coming. It should be fun. My computer at home went poopy, so my dad has to get it fixed. But anyway, I think im gonna head back towards St. Johns for the day! I've been here since 10! It's been a full work day!!! Tata for now!!! Until next time....over and out!

So yet another semester of college has gone by, and I dont feel any closer to graduation! Fortunately, I am finally a sophomore and that many credits closer to being a junior. But anyway, I am ok with the fact that I didn't do my very very best in all my classes. I have no one to blame but myself. Granted, I know I could have done much better if I had put a little more effort into everything....but hey...whatcha gonna do??? There is always next semester! Today's final was so easy. It was the past four exams regurgitated onto another test. So I guess reading over all of those old tests last night, helped me more than I thought it would!!!! Thats a plus. I'm going home in a little bit, and if you can catch me online there I'll talk to you. If not, and you want to talk...call my cell. It needs the exercise. That poor thing has been sitting around here not doing anything for like the past four months. So it's time he got some good use!!! I start my new job on Monday. I am really really excited about it all. Hopefully this job wont be too bad!!!! keep your fingers crossed! I think thats all for now! Until next time....over and out!!!

WOW!!! Last night is kicking my butt big time today! Me and the girls thought it would be a great idea to pull an all nighter and stay up studying for our finals today!!!! Well needless to say, I made it until about 5:30-5:45 until I finally had to put the biology flash cards down and climb into bed. I didn't really want to go to bed because I knew as soon as the alarm went off I would not want to get up and miss my final completely. I didn't not get up...in fact, I was still half buzzing off of the caffiene I had consumed earlier. Well I got up..studied for another hour and then went and took my exam. Which by the way, raped me severly in the bum! Well when I got home, it took everything I had to keep my eyes open, so Jessica and I went and took our spring schedules to the caf, and ate some lunch. For some reson today, the food just tasted like poop, and nothing seemed to satisfy me. I think it was probably just because I was way to tired to eat, and didn't really want to do anything but sleep. Well I woke up with this horendous case of heart burn and I'm pretty sure that Honey, Pepsi, and the excedrin migraine I took last night wasn't a very good combination. Well when we got back here, Ashley was just getting home from her final, and Stephanie was leaving for home. So we decided it was nap time, and we laid there talking about stupid stuff, and laughed so hard I almost peed my pants. Don't you love those moods when your so tired that everything you say is funny, whether it really is or not! All three of us had afternoons like that! Well I think I ended finally falling asleep at 12:40 and the alarm went off at 1 for me to talk to these ladies about a job! I ended up falling back asleep and got up at like 1:34...I had to be there at 2, and I was in no means ready to go talk to people about a job. So I had to rush around, and then wait for the bus. Well like every other time when you actually need the bus to be there when they are supposed to be there, IT WAS LATE!! So I made it to the Student Services Building at like 2 after 2! Boy was I relieved! Well I got the job!!!!! Yay for no more cafeteria! That made my whole week! Well I have two more finals left, and then its off to home for a month! SHOULD BE FUN!!!!! But thats all for now, Until next time! Over and out

Today was a crappy day...work sucked, and my boss was an ass....I called him a f*ing asshole, and he heard me...Didn't say anything, but I'm sure he was mad! I worked for 7 hours...7 too many in the caf! Then i came home and slept for a while. My mom called to give me an update on my dad. Hes doing ok I guess. We'll see what tomorrow brings!! But I'm going to bed! Until Next time..over and out!

This seems kind of childish..but I wanted to do it anyway!!!!

PAST
First grade teacher's name: Mrs. Baily
Last word you said: DAMN
Last song you sang: Clay Walker--I Can't Sleep
Last song stuck in your head: Jo Dee Messina -- I Wish
PRESENT
What's in your CD player: Christmas CD's
What color socks are you wearing: not wearing any socks
What's under your bed: A bunch of tubs and boxes from when we moved in
What's the weather like: FREEZING
What time did you wake up today: 7:49am
FUTURE
Who do you want to marry: Someone who loves me
Are you going to college: Yeah
Where do you want to go: Fiji
What is your career going to be: Hopefully in the medical field somewhere
Where are you going to live: In the south somewhere
How many kids do you want: 2-3
Kids' names: Alexia Rachelle, Gabbriella Christine, Hayleigh Katherine, Jensen Thomas, Ethan Graham (weird we have a hockey player at MSU named that)
Where do you want your honeymoon: somewhere exotic
What kind of car will you have: HUMMER
-possessions-
wallet: black leather
hairbrush: yeah a little baby yellow one...
toothbrush: white and mint green from my fabulous DENTIST!!!
jewelry worn daily: silver hoop earrings and my necklace until i broke it yesterday! :(
socks: white
pillow cover: white
blanket: white with hot pink flowers
coffee cup: a big huge blue one..although its not for coffee, but hot chocolate
sunglasses: brown
underwear: mostly thongs
shoes: too many to list
nail polish: like one bottle
handbag: dont really carry one..
keychain: my msu keychain beth bought me a long time ago...
favourite top: probably my central sweatshirt
favourite pants: my A&F pajama pants
soap: Dial
perfume: Curve, Ralph Lauren Romance
mp3 playing right now: Kenny Chesney--There goes my life
car: my parents sold mine!!! *tear*
tattoos: 2...one of a sun on my foot, and a thing of daisies on my back
piercings: two in each ear...

Well well well...so this is what Happiness feels like!! It's been so long since I've been happy and done something fun! But anyway, My roomates and I did a lot of stuff this weekend. on friday, like previously noted, we went to the Spartan Dischords concert, which was great! Those guys rock!!! Then on saturday, Ashley, Jessica, and I went to the MSU-U of M hockey game and watched U of M get beaten!! That was good, we had lots of fun there. The only bad part about the hockey games are that we have to sit right next to Slapshots the student section who happen to be really really annoying, and we sit in front of these guys who just think they are the coolest people alive...I BEG TO DIFFER!!!! But anyway, It was a very very good game! Then tonight we went to Crossroads Village and that was fun too! We walked around, took a bunch of crazy pictures, road the train, and even made some christmas ornaments! It was a good time. On the way home we went by Krispy Kreme and bought some doughnuts for this week. Can't make it through exam week without having a few krispy Kreme doughnuts! That was fun, the guy workin was in a very very good mood, and we got there just in time to see them making fresh doughnuts and to get a free one! I found out today that the lady that wanted me to babysit for her over break really does still need me, so that I will have a job when i go home!!!! yay for that! So that was some good news, the only bad part of this weekend is that my mom called me this afternoon to tell me that 1.) my dad was in the hospital with pneumonia which doesnt really make a good combination with someone who has emphysema!! and 2.) my brother got into some trouble, which he has no gotten himself out of, but I have a feeling it's only a matter of time until he gets back into the same trouble!!! That was kind of a downfall to the weekend. But anywho....I'm gonna go...Until next time...over and out!

What else can I do when the tears have all been wasted? And the only voice you choose to hear sings the songs of our hearts breaking. Say your dreams, they all have changed. Well, my smiles, they all have faded. And the thoughts that used to seem so pure in my heart, they now feel jaded. Because I wanna feel like I did. And I wanna feel innocence. What else can it be except this pride I'm sick of drinking. Storm clouds all have gone away. Can we stop this thing from sinking? Because I wanna feel like I did. And I wanna feel innocence. And I want you to know, and to feel in your soul, that someone has come and gone. I'm stuck up here with you. I never thought we'd get this high. I used to be afraid of falling. Now I'll spred my wings and I will fly. I wanna feel like I did. And I wanna feel innocence. I wanna feel like I did. --Hootie and the Blowfish....Innocence.

Spartan Dischords are AWESOME!

So tonight was a night I've been waiting for since last year! I finally got to go see the Dischords in concert! It was AWESOME! It's unbelievable how good they are! I can't even begin to explain!!! But anyway, it was a good time! Had a little roomate bonding and all, since we all went together and did something as a group!!! It was good! Anyway, I'm waiting for the delivery man to bring me my pizza! I'm starving...I haven't eaten since like 2 and it's not good for this whole diet thing! But anywho....I THINK IM GONNA GO CRAZY!!! Sometimes I wonder where people get off? Like what makes you think you have the right to treat someone else like shit? It's just wrong...wrong wrong wrong...in SO MANY WAYS! Not that it's any of my business, but who knows how long we are going to be around..BE NICE TO EACH OTHER! Is it really that difficult?!?!?!?! Seriously people! So i was a good roomate tonight and bought the girls Pizza. I mean this year Ashley alone has gotten me so much food, its not even funny. But anyway, that was good, i mostly ate the breadsticks, im not that big of a pizza fan, but anyway...they were good! Then i decided to try something and I turned my computer on to see if i could get these files off of it. Low and behold, the cursed thing stayed on long enough to let me burn 176 songs onto a CD, not to mention get the files i wanted! So that was the highlight of my night, hell i think that was the highlight of my entire semester! LOL...its sad i know, but my computer has been a hunk of junk all year! STUPID THING....anyway, as if that wasn't good enough, my hair fit into a pony tail!!! YAY!!! I'm not crazy I swear! To top everything off, just now we saw some girl get arrested! HAHA STUPID GIRL! her first mistake was getting drunk, her second mistake was getting behind the wheel of the car. As if its not embarrassing enough to get busted for that, she got busted right in front of our building, and I can almost guarantee that we weren't the only ones watching her! But they made her do all those crazy tests, and then they gave her a breathalizer...She was screwed!!! They handcuffed her, patted her down and put her in the back of the patrol car, about 10 minutes one of the two officers drove her away to her night in jail! I bet her parents will be pissed! Then her stupid friend tried to refuse a breathalizer...that didn't work, I think she still got a MIP!!! thats what happens when you drink while your underage..and then try to drive!!! It's not a smart idea!! HAHAHAHA...but for now, im gonna go! Until next time...over and out!

I got this Idea from someone else..THANKS!

It's not easy saying this to you. It's the hardest thing I've ever had to do. But boy before you go, I want you to know. I wish you strength, when times are hard. Oh I wish with all my heart you find just what your looking for. I wish you joy, I wish you peace, and that every star that you see is within your reach. And I wish you still loved me! I wish that things were different you know that. But I'm still happy for the times we had..you mean the world to me, oh baby please believe...I wish you strength, when times are hard. Oh I wish with all my heart you find just what your looking for. I wish you joy, I wish you peace, and that every star you see is within your reach. and I wish you still loved me! Oh losing you is tearing me apart, but a part of me will be with you no matter where you are. --Jo Dee Messina I Wish

The time has come....I am getting sick. I can already feel it. I figure I'll get sick just in time for my finals and the beginning of break! What a great thing eh? Anyway, Ill just have fun now while Im still not sick! This week has been the longest week ever i think! It woud figure that it would be the case, we finally have plans all weekend, and the week goes by like it's in slow motion! Seriously, Thanksgiving break seems so far in the past. It feels like that was months ago, but in reality its only been four days that I have been back! Must not be having any fun! Anywho, I got the best call ever today. Someone called me offering me a job! Thats a definite first. It kind of makes me a little bit mad though. I interviewed for the same job over two months ago, and the lady is just now calling me back saying the position is available. What the heck....not to mention I had to go suffer through the caf for 6 weeks!!! Gr...but maybe, just maybe, I'll get this job, and I wont have to work in the caf anymore. Even though I think i could quite possibly miss it! Who would have thought that I would actually enjoy working in the cafeteria! Anyway....I had a nutrition exam today, and mind you I haven't been to the actual lecture since the first exam, and i did really well! I only got 5 wrong, which gives me a 90% on this test, and if I do well enough on the optional final, I'll get a 3.5, or maybe even a 4! That would make my semester if I got a 4 in the class i went to the least! HAHA!!!! only like 22 more hours until my weekend starts, i couldn't be more excited! This is so true, it's the lyrics to my new favorite song!!!! "Although I know tomorrow will be here, tomorrow may not always be here for me. 'cause nothing in life is for certain, but death's guaranteed! and thats the reason that i say dance every dance and live each day as though its your last and tell those that you love how you feel before its too late! Life is right here and now, we only go around just one time, so embrace them dont waste them for these are the days of our lives!" It's so true! but anyway, thats it! Until next time...Over and out!

I think that this whole Ryan and Trista thing on tv is a load of hooey! Do you really believe that they are in love? I don't! I think that they are just in it for some large amount of money that they were offered! Honestly! Im getting kind of tired of all of these stupid reality tv shows. Things like Average Joe, and Joe Millionare, how can people be stupid enough for the producers to be able to pull that show off twice?? I am amazed at times at how dumb people can be! But on another note, tonight was the first time ive worked since last Monday...it was weird going in there. Somedays I love working in the caf, and somedays I absolutely hate it! Tonight was one of the nights that I actually enjoyed it. There are some definite perks to it. One of the supervisors is really cool, and hes super nice to me, for reason's im not too sure about! But anyway, i get away with pretty much anything when hes there, and I think its absolutely hilarious! Tonight he let me go early, because one I have an exam in the morning, and two I didn't feel too hot tonight. But still, hes funny! Plus there are some other students there that I love!!! Not to mention that most of my student supervisors aren't arrogant assholes this year! Well Im not stuck with one in particular, boy we all know who that is!!! I am really sad however that my cousin is no longer there, he hasn't been for a while..but still...it's not the same! Only one and a half more days until my weekend starts! I can't wait. It is going to be so much fun! I think its so funny, how obvious some people make it that they don't want to talk to you! I mean you can get online and not have to sign off right away, I get the hint...You don't want me to talk to you...I WONT IM YOU!!!! Wow! ON a much lighter note, I heard the best song ever the other day on the radio. Well I didn't know who sang it, so Ashley and I have been on a crusade trying to figure out who sang it. We listened to the radio for 3 days waiting for them to play the song, and finally LAST NIGHT they played it! You should definitely download it...It's called, Days of Our Lives by James Otto. IT'S SOO GOOD!!! Download it ASAP! I know you'll love it! I need to get my computer fixed. I'm really getting upset about it. Nobody know's whats wrong with it, and at this point in my life, I really can't afford to buy a new one! So I think thats about it for now..maybe I'll think of something else later! Until next time...Over and out!

Hmm...well let's see. Today was one of those days, where all you feel like doing is sleeping! I had another rough night last night...still had a lot of stuff on my mind, so once again i fell asleep on the living room floor. I didn't get a very good sleep though. I kept waking up for different reasons, one of the times i woke up, i realized that i had spilt the glass of water that was next to me all over my pillows. so i had to sleep on wet pillows, that didn't help the situation any. So some people have found my blog. If you have any comments, feel free, you know my email address...and if you have forgotten its at the top under..[[email-me]]! This semester is almost over. Weird to think about. Its been flying by, and in a week and a half its off for home for a month. What am i going to do with myself? No car to get away if i need to, at least beth will be home too, so she can take me places..Thank GOD for best friends!!!!! Then after break its back for another 8 weeks or so..then its spring break, not sure about my plans for that yet, then back for another 8 weeks, and then home for the summer before moving into my OWN apartment!! yay for that! It gives me something to look forward too....My OWN APARTMENT!!!! you dont know how happy that makes me saying it! It's going to be soo much fun! My room is a mess..maybe tonight if I can't sleep (which looks to be the case), ill clean it up a little...it definitely can't hurt anything! we'll see about that..i also need to do some more studying for my last psych exam tomm...i need to do good, so that i wont have to do as good on the final..it wouldn't hurt to do really well on the final though because it does replace my lowest test grade! OH WELL...im just rambling now...Im done. Until next time...over and out!

Oh What a Day!!

Overall, today was a pretty darn good day! It was a hell of a lot better than I had planned on it being, and I am just glad that I have such great friends that do care to listen to me when I need a shoulder to cry on! Thanks guys! But anyway, I slept until about 11 which means, yes i missed work and my Biology class, but hey I got some rest..some very undisturbed rest because nobody knew where I was! ( I was laying on the living room floor, i have some very observant roomates!) I got up and then got ready to go to class, and went to the very last formal lecture for my psychology class. Boy was I ever glad about that, usually psych wouldn't bore me, but man I got shafted in the professor department. The guy I got stuck with SUCKED....I think the funniest thing he said all year was today. He was asking us question and he was trying to prove a point on conformity when he asked the class if we had defecated in the past four days. Well only about half, if that even, stood up. So he says, 1 your all either lying, or 2 you're very very ill! That was funny, then he began talking about how usually when you ask questions like that people will look around and start to talk quieter, and he was like you can usually see the look on people's face as they are thinking, "did I take a SHIT in the past four days" It was hilarious, this man is so clean cut, and is very proper in lecture so it was a riot to hear him say that in class. Maybe it's not really all that funny, but Jen and I sure did laugh a lot. Today was World AIDS day, and I heard on the news this morning that about 8,000 people die every day to AIDS, and about 2.4 people are infected with it every hour. It's times like those that make me glad to be healthy and alive! Sometimes i take things for granted and when I hear stuff like that, i feel really guilty about not being thankful for what I am blessed with! I am really really looking forward to seeing the dischords on friday, not to mention the Hockey game on saturday, which by the way Wes isn't coming for, and Crossroads Village on Sunday! It will be lots of fun! Today when I was talking to Paige she told me that I should still go to Alabama for Spring Break because if nothing else her and I would get along. I believe that too....its so weird how much the two of us have in common!!! Im serious, im sitting here thinking about it, and it stuns me!!! Weird how stuff like that works. Anyway, i think the two crazy kids are done putting up decorations so I can venture back out into the land of 371. Until next time...Over and out!

Didn't sleep at all last night, something kept me up all night. wasn't my pillow, or my bed. Wasn't the tv, just all the thoughts buzzing in my head. Im pretty sure it was my own sadness that kept me awake until about 4:30 this morning. Just late enough for me to miss work and to wake up with the worst headache ever. Great!! I'm not sure if it was because I was so upet and I tried to stop myself from crying, or if it was that cigarette I smoked? YEAH I SMOKED! I didn't really want to, and its not like its an every day occurance like it used to be, but I bought a pack a while ago, and it's almost all still there. I think there are like 4 gone, I smoked most of them the last time I drank. I'm not sure what makes me smoke when Im drinking...it's so gross, and it makes me smell so bad. Plus it leaves that awful taste in my mouth. Anyway, I was talking to Stephen's best friend Paige today. It's weird, that girl and I have a lot in common! I was telling her about the awful situation from last night, and she was like thats terrible. So talking to her made me feel a little bit better about everything. Shes awesome! But anyway, Ashley, jessica and I went and got some ticket to see the Spartan Dischords on Friday. All four of us girls are going! It should be way fun! They are really really awesome! I can't even begin to explain how good they are! Lol!!! Anyway, I think thats about all for now...Until next time..Over and out.