Today...

So I was laying in bed this morning thinking about how I used to blog all the time and how I rarely ever do it any more! I don't even journal like I used to. I guess maybe it's because I don't have much going on in my life that I care to share with people, not that anyone reads this anyway. I think in the last 7 months or so, I've just been in a season of rest and recuperation. My life has been slow and boring and I have enjoyed it that way. However, now I'm feeling a bit of cabin fever and I believe that I am ready to move on and grow.

Our move is right around the corner and will be here before I know it. Kristy's last day of teaching is June 3rd and we will be leaving sometime the following weekend. Part of me excited, but part of me is not looking forward to it. I really do not want to be stuck in Ohio. When I moved to Arkansas, I looked forward to getting away from Michigan and the lifestyle there. I don't like it and I don't look forward to getting back that way. There has been some talk of possibly relocating to Florida, but right now that is up in the air and I have this gut feeling that there will be no follow through! I would LOVE it if we moved to Florida! It would make the transition out on my own so much easier. I guess we'll see....the next few months should reveal a lot! I just keep hoping that Kristy will get a job in Florida and thats where we will end up! I am going to miss some of the people here. As crazy and weird as this may sound, I've actually grown quite close to the ladies at work. I spend all my time with them, so I guess it's hard to believe that I wouldn't have.

On another note, I kind of met someone. Nothing real serious, but I guess it has potential! Right now it's real casual...just phone conversations but I guess we will see where it goes. It may not go anywhere...but then there is the other aspect of it too. I guess I just like the idea of waiting it out and seeing how things go. The whole idea of getting back into the dating scene is a little frightening to me. It's all exciting in the right light....but until I'm in that light...I'm going to be SUPER reserved! But I AM looking forward to the future!

Anyway, it's storming here today....which makes me want to stay in bed all day! Maybe I'll get out and go shopping or something. I probably wont...I'll probably stay in and sleep...which doesn't bother me..Anywho...I'm off to enjoy the day! Have a good Easter!

Peace!

One foot forward

It's a brand new year and I have never been more happy to see the old one go! 2008 was by far the worst year of my life. Things were up and down, things happened that I never imagined would be going on in my life. But through all that, I learned more about myself than ever before. This time has taught me what I want in life and who I want to be.

I'm excited to see what is around the corner for me. I have lots of options and I am excited to explore them. The rest of my life is going to be exciting and I don't want to settle for anything less than I deserve, something I've done far to many times in my past. I have the potential to start over new in so many new places, basically anywhere I want. Beth and I are discussing about moving to Kansas City which would be a fabulous new start...if I can wrangle the finances and be on track financially. I don't want to be barely scraping by, I want to be successful on my own and be able to be comfortable on my own. I know that isn't too much to ask because I think thats a desire a lot of people have and are successful at doing. I can afford to find a new place to call home and I'm excited about that part of my future.

On another note, I'm also completely content on being on my own. Nobody to worry about but myself. That may sound selfish, but I think for once in my life I need to focus on my self more than anyone else. I'm all that matters at this time, this very second. I'm excited about that aspect of my life too. Something fresh and new, a brand new start on life!

Every aspect of my life is exciting for me. I have a brand new outlook and I'm ready to see where the wind blows me!