I've been kind of slacking in the updating area. But hey, thats what happens when you are busy, and when you aren't busy you don't want to do anything but sleep! Oh well, only one more week of classes. The scary part is that this last week of the semester is what is going to determine the entire next year of my life. Because if I don't do well on my finals, I'm going to be on probation for a third time, and therefore, probably recessed from MSU for one academic year! Which will suck because if I take classes somewhere else they won't transfer back here. God I hope that my grades will pull me through! I need to do well. I spent 13 hours yesterday studying for my COM 100 final this morning. I think all went well, we'll see though when I get the results back! Keep your fingers crossed for me!! In the same breath, I am ready for this all to be over. I want to go home and work and have fun, not have to worry about this kind of stuff. We'll see, maybe these classes im taking over the summer will help boost my GPA as well! We'll see! On a much deeper note, sometimes I wonder who I am turning out to be. Like I mean in high school, I never really cared about getting good grades and studying, but I always managed to do well. Now that I am in college, I have lost all ambition. I used to have all these amazing dreams, that I would accomplish, and I think now I am only successful in setting myself back. Everyday I create one more GIANT road block for myself. The reality of me actually ever becoming a doctor is slowly fading with every passing minute. I need to start buckling down and taking this shit seriously. There is nothing more that I want to do with my life than to become a doctor. That is all. I don't care if I ever even get married, or really have kids. But the one thing I do want is to be a very very successful doctor! My life is so screwed up. I have no priorities, well I do and that is basically to sleep, and never wake up. Thats it. Most of the time, the things that I think I really want fade too. I spend so much time analyzing what I want and how to get it, and worrying about being rejected that I lose interest and move on to something new, losing out on many many WONDERFUL things. I am beginning to realize that I have some seriously major character flaws. Im beginning to think that the only thing I know about my life is that I honestly truly do not know what I want right now. And I'm beginning to hurt people that care about me, but the thing of it is that I don't think its fair to subject someone to my indecisiveness even if I do care about them. I need to have some sort of direction in my life before I can be there fully for someone else. Hell even my very best friendships are suffering. Sometimes I wonder if I would rather be alone for the rest of my life than make a commitment to anything! Who the hell knows. I wonder if everyone goes through this kind of thing sometime in their life? I think deep down it would make me feel a little bit better if I knew that was the case. But I don't think it is! I never intended for anything to be the way it is now...and if I could go back and change things..believe me there would be MANY MANY things that I would change! But unfortunately, that isn't a luxury life is provided with, you can't change whats in the past. I'm trying to make myself happy, I can't make anyone else happy until I do that for myself! Who knows, maybe I'll wake up tomorrow and things will be different, doubtful but it's worth a thought! I'm done..until next time...Over and out!

Oh what a crazy week this week has turned out to be so far! It's been up and down and all over the place. I started packing last week and took some stuff home last weekend. Then last night I decided it was time to pack up the majority of the rest of my stuff. Well, now we have bare walls, a bare bulletin board, and our room looks very sterile and depressing! Then today Ashley and Jessica's dads came and took our beds down. That was very entertaining. So now we have nothing on our walls, nothing on our floors, and no beds to sleep in. Now we just have mattresses on the floor until next thursday when we go get our real beds out of storage! It will prove to be a very entertaining time period. But on to another note, I realized the other day that I have changed a lot since last year. I mean honestly, last year I was a flirt. We'll just say that I made out with a few people. And this year, I haven't made out with anyone, well except for Wes over Christmas break. That is something I am very proud of....VERY! But anyway, I don't really know what else to say. I want school to be done so I can start making money. I am very excited to start working at my new job. Don't get me wrong I am excited to work here over the summer too, but quite frankly I am not looking forward to the drive back and forth to Lansing three times a week! But I'm sure I'll get used to it. Hopefully I'll really enjoy the job with Saginaw County. I'm sure I will, the people seem really great!!!! So we'll see. Another really exciting thing is that I get to go see my dentist on Wednesday of next week! That makes me really happy, I haven't seen him since like November when I got my braces off!!! And that was not the best time to see him, but hopefully this time I'll get a good report!! My brother goes to him now too, which is really cool, because besides being really really good looking, he is genuinely a nice guy. So I'm glad that my brother is going there too! But they were talking and Dr. Sheridan asked him if he were my husband, and BJ said now I'm her brother. And then Dr. Sheridan said to him, "well in that case, it's safe for me to say this....your sister is a very very pretty girl!" Yay for the Dentist thinking I'm pretty. I mean once in a while it is nice to know that someone thinks you are attractive, especially a good looking someone. Even if they are old and married with five kids. I can not begin to explain to you how excited I am to live in our apartment next year. Today I was looking at some of pictures that a friend of mine who lives in Capstone took, and they just made me all the more excited to live there. Another cool thing is that we have neighbors who we know. Well at least Jess and I do. Burch and Reen on the other hand, aren't so familiar with the guys!!! Yay!! But I think thats all for now....Until next time..Over and out! I'm so tired of being here. Supressed by all of my childish fears, and if you have to leave. I wish that you would just leave because your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. ~My Immortal~ Evanescence

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I am so sick of this stupid cold. It is driving me nuts. I slept like crap all weekend and it was in my own house. Grr....I saw my new car. I like it, it's a pretty decent car. I am happy, its going to get me from point A to point B for a while. So I'm happy with that. I've officially named it Lola. I don't know what it is with me and naming my cars, but I think it adds character! I only have two weeks left of school before summer comes, and I am so excited. I can't wait to be done and have a summer to do whatever the hell I want. I want to have a lot of fun this summer and make a lot of money at the same time!!! I am so excited to start working with Saginaw County. It's going to be a fairly easy job, and I get paid decent money to sit on my ass all day long! OH what a life! Hahaha....I talked to a long lost friend today. That was nice. I definitely think that we need to hang out over the summer. There are quite a few people that I would like to hang out with this summer. Some that are going away, some that I won't have as much time for next year, and just some people that I haven't been hanging out with as much as I should be! Paige convinced me into telling this "person" that I am very very interested in how I feel. I'm sure they already know because I have loser stamped to my forhead, but still. It's worth a shot, what have I got to lose? Oh well, I need to get going and besides I have run out of things to write about!!! The teacher fair SUCKS..It is my least favorite part of this job!! Until next time...Over and out~!

Do you ever just like someone SOOOO much and they have NO CLUE! I am in that precise predicament. I like someone a whole lot, and I have liked them for as long as I can remember. But that sad part is that I just can't bring myself to tell them that I am seriously into them because I know that rejection would be close behind it. So I'm an idiot and would rather have the chance of a life time pass me right by instead of acting on something. I just wish that this person felt the same way about me and would tell me how they've liked me for so long and then everything would be perfect and I wouldn't have to risk getting hurt! BOYS ARE STUPID THROW ROCKS AT THEM....I'm sticking with that motto on life! Whatever!

Sniffle, sniffle, cough cough. My immune system is starting to crash and it's the END of the year. Why couldn't this have happened like everyone else in the dead of winter. No, now Michelle has to be sick when I enjoy doing things and can be outside. Instead i jsut feel like laying around and be a bump on a log! I have an exam tomorrow. I am going to do really well on it. Or at least I need to do really well on it. but anyway, only two more full weeks and I'm out of school for the summer! YAY!! I am so excited, and then it's home to work and be a productive member of society for a few months. I hope that I can come through with all of my plans! that would be great! I've decided that I'm going to use my University refund to buy my season pass at Cedar Point. I don't care if I have to prostitute myself for the damn thing....I'm going to do it, one way or another! Hmm...what else is new. Nothing really, I scheduled my physical, physical demands test, and drug test for my job. It's scheduled for the Wednesday of finals week because I have a dentist apt that day and will be home anyway! I am excited, i want to start right now!!!! Anyway, I think thats all....I'm gonna go crash I think..Im TIRED! Until next time...Over and out!

I'm not a perfect person. There are many things I wish I didn't do. But I continuelearning. I never meant to do those things to you. And so I have to say before I go, that I just want you to know. I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new, and the reason is you. I'm sorry that I hurt you, it's something I must live with everyday and all the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away and be the one who catches all your tears, thats why I need you to hear. I'm not a perfect person, I never meant to do those things to you and so I have to say before i go that I just want you to know. I've found a reason for me, to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new, and the reason is you. I've found a reason to show a side of me you didn't know. A reason for all that I do, and the reason is you. ~The Reason....Hoobastank

What a good day this has turned into. I had a meeting with my advisor this afternoon, the new one for the College of Social Science. She was old and not really all that helpful. So all in all the meeting was a waste of time.She mapped out pretty much what I already knew and gave me NO help in what to take for next year. The only thing she recommended was that I take a 200 level anthropology class before I take a 400 level one. But the 400 level one fits perfectly into my schedule so I think I'm going to take that anyway! Oh well. We'll see. On a much brighter note, I got the job with Saginaw Parks and Recreation. I am so excited, because now my summer is going to go just as planned!!! YAY! Lets just hope that all of my recreational plans will go as planned. Like the road tip/trip, the trip(s) to Cedar Point and camping. They should all be lots of fun. I am ready to be done with school. Everyone tells me I'm going to have a lot to do this summer with working two jobs and taking two online classes. But I think I'll be just fine. My parents bought me another car! Now I will be sporting a 96 Corsica. Yeah I know its a little bit of a grandma car, but still...its a car and it runs, plus the cruise and the air work, and my dad said he would halfs with me on a CD player for it! SWEET!!!! Oh I'm ready to go home and drive my car!!!! It's soo nice to be able to say that, I haven't had a car in a long long time!!!! TEAR! but enough about that I'm gonna go do something productive!!! Until next time...over and out!!

Oh what a great weekend this was! Seriously we had so much fun doing nothing. The three of us girls just had such a great time with Bryce. That kid is great, I think I've had some of the best conversations with him. He is just so up front and honest about everything. Friday night we didn't really do anything but sit around....we thought about going out but decided it would be best if we stayed in. Got a kick out of all the other drunk people. Then Saturday night I was supposed to go to Mt. Pleasant but didn't go, which I am kicking myself for now, but thats a whole nother story. Instead we drank here. That was a good time. Sometimes I think we need more weekend just being stupid. It was GREAT! Then today we layed out in the sun and did some studying, well I read and the other two did a large majority of "resting their eyes!" But thats ok because it was BEAUTIFUL outside today! I think the high was 85 and that is just amazing for April. It is 75 as we speak which isn't too bad for 2 in the morning on an April night. SWEET! But anyway here are some of the pictures of us from last night being crazy and walking around campus!! Haha, I hope you all enjoy them as much as we enjoyed taking them!!!

Me, Jess, and Ashley looking like retards! (No I'm not really grabbing her boob even though it looks like it!)

The group of trouble makers on our way back from Taco Bell. We make an incredibly strange group...but we like it all the same!
But anyway people thats my update for the day! Until next time...Over and out!

I am ready for school to be done. Like I wish this week were finals week. I am sick of being at school, but the crazy part is that I don't really want to go home either. I guess it's a lose-lose situation. I was supposed to go to Mt. Pleasant last night with Beth to go to Jared's party. Well we decided not to go because we thought he might think we were dorks or something. Then last night he kept asking me where I was, because he thought I was going to be there. Granted he was pretty drunk and probably doesn't remember it today, but still I was so mad that we didn't go. GRRR...oh well. There is always another time. It's so beautiful outside right now! I'm so happy, finally, Spring is here. I've been waiting for this since like November. Right now it is 77 degrees outside. I talked to Brandon and Eric last night and I guess they aren't coming up for their friends wedding. That sucks. Oh well....one day we will get around to seeing each other! Last night we walked to Taco Bell at like 12-1 to get some food. Hahaha, thats like the first time I've been out walking around since like Halloween. I'm not much of a partier these days. I find more pleasure in watching drunk people make asses out of themselves. Like last night when we were walking to Taco Bell I saw one of the bitchy girls from my COM class, and she screamed HI. Like seriously screamed it, it was high pitched and loud. I just laughed at her stupid ass. We took lots of fun pics! We were walking back and had to stop like every five steps to take a different picture!! Haha! anyway, I'm not going to post them on here, I'll put the on my website! Maybe one or two will be on here, but other than that the rest are going up on the website! But I think thats all for now, I think I may go outside and get some studying done for finals. Until next time....Over and out!

This summer is going to be great. I am bound and determined to make it one of the best summers I've ever had! Seriously this will probably be one of my last summers at home and with all of my friends. I have great plans already for parts of the summer. I've decided that I'm not going to take the class at Delta, I'm going to stick with the two from state and then work both jobs. If I even get the other one. Please keep your fingers crossed that I do get it because there is no way without the second job I will have enough money to actually be able to go through with all of the plans that I have for this summer. I have a road trip, or possibly just a trip, planned for like the last week in June, first week of July. Plus I want to go to Cedar Point the first weekend in August. I think I'm going to invest in a season pass for Cedar Point so that I can go whenever i want. I think that would be great. Besides, after going two or three times, the stupid thing would be paid for anyway! So we'll see. Maybe I'll actually do it! I'm only going to do it though if Jess and Ashley get one because what would be the point of me getting one and not having anyone to go with???? So I think we are going to get them and then spend all summer at Cedar Point!!! YAY!! haha. Anyway, I found out today where my brother is stationed. Looks like he'll be spending some quality time in the country! Haha...he got stationed in Little Rock, Arkansas! That sucks, but hes lucky in the fact that wherever the plane he is assignd to goes, he will go too. So if the plane goes to London, Justin will be in London. If the plane goes to Iraq, Justin will be in Iraq. Which is cool for him because he'll get to see the world, and travel. So I'm happy for him in that aspect! But anyway, it's such a beatiful day outside, I think I want to go out and lay in the sun! Until next time...Over and out!

From the day I saw you I really, really wanted to catch your eye. There's something special 'bout you. I must really like you 'cause not alotta guys are worth my time. It's getting kinda crazy 'cause you're taking over my mind. And it feels like you dont know my name. Round and round and round we go, will you ever know? I see us on our first date, you doing everything that makes me smile and when we had our first kiss, it happend on a Thursday. Oh it set my soul on fire. I'm feelin like I'm doin nothing I've ever done for anyones attention. Take notice of whats in front of you cause did I mention? You about to miss a good thing and you'll never know how good it feels to have all of my affection and you'll never get a chance to experience my lovin! You Don't Know My Name....Alicia Keys

So today is the end of the week. Thankfully. Now that the semester is almost over it seems like time is barely moving. It's weird. This was one of the longest weeks of the entire year and I'm not real sure why. Ron is sick again, back in good Ole' Covenant Cooper. I'm not kidding when I say he should definitely just rent a room there and that way he won't have to go through the entire process of being admitted, he can just go up check in and they can start billing him. He hasn't even been out of the hospital a week and hes right back where he started. He has honestly been in and out of the hospital every other week since January. Now when people ask me about it, it doesn't even phase me. It is scary though, honestly, I've never seen him use oxygen as much as he has been the past few times I've been home. Now he has to use it when hes just sitting watching tv. It's really sad, and it makes me wonder how long I'm going to have him around. I used to wonder about who I would ask to walk me down the aisle when I got married, whether I should ask Ron, my real dad, my grandpa, or have one of my brothers do it? I used to joke that it would probably be Ron because my real dad is so old hes going to croak before I get married. But now I don't know if any of them are going to be around. My dad sure isn't gettting any younger, I mean the man is 67 years old and develops a new health problem every day! Ron sure isn't getting any healthier. He gets worse every day. My grandpa is healthy, but he's not getting any younger either. Not to mention that my brother is in the service now, and granted he will probably never see combat, but I have to remember that his plane could always be one of the ones that gets shot down out of the sky. It's really weird to think that at any minute I could lose four of the five most important men in my life. How depressing....I need to talk about something different. Last night my roomate Jessica had her cousin (I think) stay the night. Now mind you, Jessa is only three years old. We got really bored and started playing around and took some really great pictures! Here they are!!! Hahahaha.... (By the way, all of the pictures are staged, no one is really drinking except for the guys who are old enough!!)
Haha look at the party girl, she knows how to do it, Marlboro Menthol Lights and Bud Light!!!
CAUGHT! Smoking and drinking at 3 w/ Jessica!!!
She was going through 'em like they were going out of style!!!

Not only was drinking but she was bringing the guys in too!! It was a PARTY!

Ooops forgot about this! Looks like we don't care about IDing too much!

Oh I forgot to mention that the Speech went GOLDEN!!! Thanks for anyone who was concerned!

Today has been an awesome day! Seriously, even though the talk with the IAH TA didn't go over so well, she said shes going to take it into consideration when figuring out my grade. We'll see what that means! I need to study my ass off for finals. I think I'm going to start once I get done writing this. Seriously, I need to do really well on all of my finals so that I can get good grades in all of my classes! Fingers crossed!!! Today was my last lab, that makes me happy. There is nothing worse than having a 3 hour lab, even if it only once a week. IT SUCKS! Hopefully I won't need to take one again now that I've changed my major, how great would that be?!?!?! I am so happy, not to mention it was BEAUTIFUL outside today. Makes me smile when I can wear only a T-shirt and jeans, no coat, no sweatshirt. I love it! I should be finding out next week if I got the job with Saginaw County Parks and Recreation. I am kind of hoping that I don't get it, but with my luck I will so get it and they will give me the office job and then I'll be kicking myself in the ASS. Oh well, we'll see when the time comes around. I was told today that the Yoopers are coming down this weekend. Thats exciting, I haven't seen Kelly and Jessica in forever. That will be cool, then Beth and I are supposed to be doing something on Saturday, but I'm not quite sure how that is going to work out. We'll see! Next week is going to be amazing. HAHA...nothing major due on Wednesday which is a huge relief because it seems like we always have something due. I think there might be a quiz or some bull like that. Not to mention the fact that no lab, or real lab anyway, just the LCE. Plus the Teacher Fair is next friday, which also means that I will be raking in the big bucks!!! HAHA YES!!! Anyway, I'm going to go for now and maybe Con burch into going to Caf to Go with me so that I can get some uncrustables! Sweetness!!!! Until next time folks...Over and out!

So I'm sitting here at work with nothing to do because I AM AWESOME, and have everything completed that needs to be done on my part! So that makes me happy, Dawn just went outside for a little bit, and when she comes back in I am going to practice my speech for her before I have to give it today! I am so thankful that this is one of the last ones that we have to give because I HATE GIVING THEM!!! This class has been the bane of my existence for the past semester and I will be thankful when it is over! This speech is huge and I will feel really bad if I screw it up for my group! So hopefully I'll stay calm and not freak out and start speed talking about moving around, and especially not forgetting to make eye contact! AAAGGGHHH.....this is awful. Haha..lets pray that I don't go into a career where I have to get up and give speeches often. That would suck. This keyboard sucks as well! HAHAHA....the keys stick and its beginning to make me angry. Oh well. I figured out what I would have to get in all the rest of my classes to make up for the fact that I have completely bombed BIO, yet again! At least this time I'm not alone!!!! A lot of people have done bad in it, so I'm not worried. I need to talk to my IAH TA to see about getting some slack on my absences! I'm going to talk to her tomorrow and see what she says, if shes a complete bitch about it, I'll just go to the person abover her!!! So maybe that will help out! Who knows. I was going to skip out of work a little bit early, but I think I'm going to leave in like the next half hour or so. That will give me some time to go home and get all of my stuff around and then go back to Class. Hmmm.....anyway, I'm out for now...until next time...Over and Out!

What is the geekiest part of your music collection? LFO
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night? there is nothing in our fridge to raid.
What is the little physical habit that gives away your insecure moment? shaking my leg.
Do you know anyone famous? no...not really.
Do you know how to play poker? somewhat.
What was the last song you were listening to? Mr. Big Just To Be With You.
Who is your best friend? Beth
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself? I'll keep Paige's answer! i definately have some room for improvement
Something you love and hate? Boys.
Do you tell your friends about your sex life?If they ask ...
What do you order at a bar? Prolly a corona or an Amaretto Sour.
Do you consider yourself materialistic? No not really
If you won the lottery, what would you do? Buy a Trail Blazer, a house for myself, and one for my parents, buy our cabin up north from my grandparents so they wouldn't have to worry about it any longer, pay for college, and definitely go shopping. Than whatever was left over I would invest.
If you don't like a person, how do you show it? I don't talk to them.
What kind of first impression do you think you give to people? Hmmm, I'm friendly?
Are you a giver or a taker? Giver.
How many drinks before you're tipsy? depends on what I'm drinking
How often do you have sex? Never
What's the most painful experience you've ever had? Watching my dad lay in a hospital bed and not being able to do anything for him but hold his hand.

Grr, I'll be so thankful when school is over! I have this big speech that is due on wednesday and my group thought it would be a good idea to meet today to go over everything that we are going to be talking about. Well we get to this kids house, and we are all talking about what we are talking about and it dawns on me, MY GROUP SUCKS! The only guy that is in our group is weird....totally weird! Then two of the girls are freaking rick snobs and at time I wonder if they are completely brain dead!!! I swear, it drives me nuts. They were talking about where they are living next year and stuff and I was sitting in the back seat and was wondering to myself, do they even remember I'm back here. The entire time, they never asked me what i thought or even acted like they wanted me to be part of their shallow conversations. Not like I would want to join because I have better things to worry about than whether or not to ride the bus because its gross. I'm sorry my mommy and daddy don't just buy me a brand new car and then pay for every little thing I want. I WORK for what I have and am VERY VERY proud to do so! The one girl was like "my parents just gave me money for easter and now I want to ask them for more money to put in my bank account so that I have money on my Debit card." I wanted to say, why don't you get a job you lazy ass free loader! I had some crazy ass dreams last night. They were off the wall. I'm not sure why, I haven't had a dream I remembered in a long time! There were a lot of people from the past in it too, like Josh Hafner, Lisa Mead, Jared Duquette, Jason Dinniger people that I don't even really talk to anymore. It was strange. I guess thats what happens when you do crack! Only two weeks and three days left of the school year and then it's finals week and then its home for the summer. I'm definitely going to make the most of this summer because I won't have too many more summers in St. Charles. Oh well....sometimes that is a definite Blessing. I hate that town more and more with every visit back! People if you are going to read this shit, at least let me know that you are reading it and sign the damn guest book....I didn't put it up there for my own satisfaction! JEEZ!! Lol...but I think I've done enough bitching for one day! Or at least for this hour! Until next time...Over and out!

Didn't do a lot today. Slept all day...blah and then went to work. After work I headed to COM lecture where my professor was extremely crazy today! He was talking all this crazy shit, and i don't know I just dont find him very funny! But anyway, At work, I did the same old stuff, worked on the layout, because stupid assholes keep registering for the fair. I mean its great that they want to come, but shouldn't we be able to have a cut off date. I get sick of having to work so hard on something to just have to change it the next day. GRRR.... But anywho, our last Big speech for COM is due on wednesday and my group just met for the first time all together today. So we worked on it, and got it done. Hopefully we will be able to pull it off and get a good grade! I spent 3.5 hours at the library which is the most I've spent there in my entire life I think. Well except for maybe the time Jess and I went to study. Who knows!!! but then I rode back here on Burch's bike, and found out that my mom had called. She left a message on my voice mail saying she had something to tell me. So I called her back, and come to find out my parents finally bought me a car. I was beginning to wonder if I was ever going to have another car again! So now my mom is going to find insurance to put on it, and then once I get home, I'll have a car!!! Yippy!!! Hahaha. I think Beth and I are going to go to this party this weekend. It should be fun, we'll see!!! i want to take a road trip this summer.. Maybe just maybe I will!!! We'll see!!! I think thats all for now, I'm gonna go do something else! Until next time....Over and Out! Lately I find I'm caught up in these thoughts, How will you come to me, How will we connect these hearts Are you somewhere near Hidden like a four-leaf clover Are you miles away Are we getting any closer?

Us in the perfect spot...This shows our real side with a label and everything!!!! Makes me smile! The look on Bryce's face makes me wonder what is going through his mind!!!

The old lady that took this picture happend to cut out the sign that we wanted a picture of!!! Damn old people!!!

Bryce likes to do weird things like this!!! Don't ask me why, I was just posing next to a slot machine!!!

This is us being illegal and taking pictures at the casino, we didn't figure out it wasn't allowed until after! OOPS!!!

I changed the format of my journal. I like this one, for now anyway. I got sick of the pink....a girl can only handle so much pink. Well this girl anyway! Beth and I went back to my house today for dinner. I had to, I couldn't just ignore my family. So this morning at church I decided that I would be the bigger person and go apologize. It was my fault anyway, well partially. It was more my brothers fault than anything else. But still. So I apologized, and my mom said she was sorry. So I guess things are all patched up now. Well for the time being until the next time all this stuff happens! So we'll see, but for now its back to school for three more weeks, and back into the routine of doing things. Then it's home for the summer to work my ass off, and go to school!! Yippy skippy!!! Anywho, i think thats all for now! Until next time...over and out!

Hmm...sometimes I wonder why I even bother going home. My mom is crazy, my brother is an asshole. Everything was peachy today until my brother got home and acted like he owned the place. My mom and I had just gotten home from the store, and this all started over something stupid. My mom bought me a pop at the store, and my brother asked if he could have it, and I said no. Well my mom told him he could have it, and I was like well go buy me another one then. HE was like blah blah blah, shook up the pop and put it back in the refridgerator. Well that pissed me off, because he could have acted like an adult about it and jsut put it back in the fridge. NO, so I told him to drink it since he shook it up.....wel he didn't want that, obviously, who would. So then I told him to give me my hat back, which he so kindly wore without asking me. And once again acting like a three year old he threw it. So I called him a douche bag and my mom went off. SO then BJ told me to have Beth take me back to school tomorrow. Which pissed me off because that seems to be everyone's answer to everything. Have Beth do it. So then my mom said the same thing, and I went off.....I told her I thought it was ridiculous that my family couldn't even take responsibility for me. Then I told her I hated coming home because all I ever do is get bitched at. She then called me an ungreatful bitch, and stormed off. Well Beth was coming to get me, so I was getting all my shit around. THen she came in and told me to find my own car, and to get all my shit picked up. So I was like whatever, this is bullshit. So I freaked out, and told her I was going to Beth's to stay the night for church in the morning. SHe didn't want me to do that and told me that church didn't do me any good and blah blah blah. I said I could understand you saying that if you actually went to church, but oh yeah thats right, YOU DON't!!!! Well that pissed her off and she started pushing me, and the next thing I know she's slapping me. That sent me over the edge, and I slapped her ass back. Then she starts freaking out and and shrinking down, like oh please don't hit me. Well needless to say, I told her to not ever fucking hit me again, and I left. SO now I'm chilling here at Beth's house wondering if I even want to go back to my house tomorrow for dinner. I shouldn't, but then again I feel bad not. So I guess we'll see what happens tomorrow. But I should get off of here for now, and do something, maybe even hit the sack! Until next time....Over and Out!

Just rolled in and its like 1:45. I forgot how great it is to come home to a dog that is happy to see you. Our dog Jodie was laying on the couch when I walked in and instantly started wagging her tail when she saw it was me! God I love that dog. I'm so glad we picked her up and brought her home with us from Oklahoma! It's nice to spend a night out with your best friend. Sometimes things get a little strained and its nice to spend some quality time together. Lets see, I spent most of today just lounging around the house. It was good, did my laundry and didn't have to pay for it. I haven't done that since like February. HAHAHA, you don't miss doing your laundry until you have to pay for it. Now I wait as long as I possibly can! BUt thats besides the point. Then I got ready and Beth and I headed to Mt. Pleasant. WE went to the Casino and then went and hung out at Jared's place. That was cool. It was good seeing Jared. I haven't seen him since I think probably my graduation party. Which has been close to two years. SO that was cool! We left his place at like a quarter to 12 and went to this place called Lil Chef's for some food. We were both starving, and so we stopped there. It was cool. Then I sort of got us lost on the way home, well not really.....we just took the wrong exit and ended up in St. Louis. We eventually figured it out, and got back on the right track. We then passed a sign that said "Welcome to Bethany Township" so we had to stop so Beth could get her picture taken with it. HAHAHA.... So then we just talked the rest of the way home. It was a good time. Very glad we went. Wes was there too, at the Casino that is. It was good seeing him, I haven't seen him in a really long time. Not since Christmas and all that stuff went down afterwards. So, it was cool. SOmetimes I miss him a lot. Like tonight while we were at Jared's he called me to make sure I got home ok. Which is really super sweet for Wes. I don't know....hes an odd character. I think lately, he has been beginning to miss me. I'm not real sure though. We'll see! BUt anyway, the rest of the weekend is devoted to some serious R&R. Sunday I'm gonna go to church and then eat some grub and head back towards hell for a few more weeks! BUt we'll see. I'm trying to keep this updated, because someoen told me I don't update enough!! This is for you! Until next time....over and out!

Nothing much has changed. I am tired as all hell at the current moment! Last night we got it into our heads that it would be a good idea to go to the casino and waste all our money. So needless to say at like 12:45, me, Jess, Ashley, Bryce, and Stephanie piled into Steph's car, took pop cans back so that we could have money, and drove to the casino! We got there at like 1:30-2 and stayed until like 4. We ended up getting back here around 5 and we all went to bed. We lost all our money but had a great time doing it! I'll post some pictures on my website if you want to check them out!!! So after that long night, I went to sleep and didn't really get up until like 11:45 and went to work at like 12:30. I worked all day until five and then I went to COM recitation. I was there until 6:30 and then I walked home and waited for my brother to come get me. We went to the Dollar to watch Fefe Dobson perform. It was a good show. Very small and cool. She performed like 6 of her songs, and then she signed autographs. So I got an autograph from her. She has a few cute band members. Her drummer was super cute. But thats besides the point. While we're on the topic of cute boys, I saw the one I was obsessed with last year! I just happened to notice that my cousin Wes's roomate Chris from last year was there. I tried to avoid him, but well I think he noticed me. Thankfully I was with my brother and it might have looked like I wasn't a desperate loser, and that I was on a date or something. Who knows!! HAHAHA..im such a dork. But thats all for now. I need to get to bed, I'm freaking tired and i have class all day tomorrow!!!! Until next time...Over and out!

For the love of Pete! Man oh Man!!!!! You know you live in the ghetto when the cops come to your area of campus like 6 or 7 times in 4 days!!! Seriously, and now there is blood smeared on doors, walls, and god knows what else. That my friend is a BIO HAZARD!!!!! Yeah, you can't even try to talk me out of not living off campus next year. It just isn't going to happen! On another much happier note, Burch and I are trying to decide who is more attractive Usher, a certain someone, or Vin Diesel? It's a hard decision. I mean Usher and Vin are pretty freaking Rich, have nice bodies, and all those nice things. But I think I would have to stick with someone who is more on my level. Whats the point of fantasizing about someone I know I'll never have, when I can fantasize about someone who is right at my fingertips? ya know, doesn't that make more sense? Yeah, I'm still holding out for him! Don't ask why...because I'm not really sure! All of these crazy things have been happening to me lately. Like good crazy, like it started with the whole fortune cookie thing. And I'm not one to believe in that kind of thing, but the fact that it is coming true, and it all started on a day that was listed as a lucky number, plus I looked up my horoscope thingy and it plays right into it. Maybe this is really meant to be! Wouldn't that be awesome!! I would be in heaven!! FOR SURE!!! yeah anyway.....I read this in Cathi's profile...and it is soo true! I thought I would just share it with anyone who reads this....and maybe bring some enlightenment to your world.!!! "After awhile you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul, and you learn that love does not mean possession, and company does not mean security. And you begin to learn that kisses are not contracts and presents are not promises, and you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your roads today because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans, and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight. After awhile you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much so you plant your own garden, and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure, that you really are strong, and you really do have worth, and you learn..." But I think that is good for now, Until next time.....Over and out!

It's gonna burn for me to say this but it's comin from my heart. It's been a long time coming but we done been fell apart. Really wanna work this out but I don't think you're gonna change. I do but you don't think it's best we go our separate ways. Tell me why I should stay in this relationship when I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby, plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with. I think that you should let it burn. When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want toBut you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to Even though this might bruise you Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burn Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you Hate the thought of her being with someone else But you know that it's over We know that it's through Let it burn Let it burn Gotta let it burn ~ Usher .....Burn

Ok, so it's been a few days since I've updated, but this week has been NUTS!!! So now that I have everything done that needed to be done, I have some time to get back in touch with the world! So I guess first things first, I went home on Tuesday after class and spent some time with the fam! You know once in a while, it's good to just go home and relax. Which is what I did. I got to see my girls (my neices) and they are growing up soo much. It's so scary to think that they are already five and in kindergarten. WOW. Next thing I know, they will be graduating from high school. Wow, I am getting old!!!! I went out to SVSU and hung out with Beth for like an hour or so, and then I headed over to the courthouse. My interview there went really well, or at least I think so. There were two guys hiring, and boy was I in luck! I mean I don't always think I'm all that attractive but for some reason, I made sure to look cute before going to the interview! Not to sound shallow, but I am so glad that I did. One of the guys that was interviewing was a rather young guy who was straight out of college. He seemed really cool, and the other guy was much older and married so I'm sure how I looked had no affect on him, but the good part was that he was from St. Charles and knew quite a bit about the town. He wasn't one of those people who just lived there and knew nothing, but he knew that i had been a cheerleader just by the fact that I had Coachie down as a reference! That is good!!! So I shoud know by April 21st if I got the job or not. If I don't get it, I won't be too worried because I do have the job here over the summer. So it won't be too bad! But then on Wednesday I had to work and thats all i did..went to work. I skipped out on Com....Jess said it wouldn't be worth going to. And besides I needed to get my Lab Report and my IAH project done. So I spent all night working on those. Needless to say I went to bed at about 5 and had to be up for class at 8:30. I got up and went right back to sleep. I skipped regular IAH and after being woken up twice, and then having been called twice by my IAH group to make sure I was coming, I decided it was time to get up and get ready. So I went to IAH and presented my project with my group, and then busted my ass to get to Lab so I could turn my Lab Report in on time. I had to run from the Transportation Center to get there on time. Eeek. So I came home Thursday after lab and crashed for a few hours. Today I got up and went to work after struggling to drag myself out of bed. So all in all its been a crazy week. I forgot one of the most important parts. I had a meeting with my academic advisor on Wed. morning and I was there for like almost an hour. Most appointments are only half. So we talked about a lot. She convinced me that I would be better off changing my major. So I am officially changing my major. Instead of pre-med or Human Bio its going to be Interdisciplinary Studies in Social Science with a concentration in Health Studies, a cognate in Psychology and a specialization in Bioethics, Humanities, and Society. You can't tell me that isn't a mouth ful!!!! I am kind of screwing myself over in the fact that I am going to have to go a little bit longer to finish, but oh well...NO MORE ORGO!!!! YAY for that!!! Oh and I got a really good fortune the other day, I think it may be coming true. The day it started coming true was on the 30, which just so happened to be one of the lucky numbers listed!!! It said, "A wish will be granted after a long delay!" I am so excited, I will for sure let you know how that goes! But I think I'm gonna go, Until Next Time....Over and Out!