As Jessica says all the time...life is a lot to think about sometimes!!! I think the first thing that I have been thinking about a lot lately is the fact that my brother is STILL here. I know it sounds mean, and I should be more sympathetic towards him, but hey....he's beginning to overstay his welcome. My parents baby him enough as it is, and quite frankly, its getting really annoying. He had the audacity the other day to call me a mooch. I wanted to turn around and say "excuse me, who is the mooch here?" He's the one who has been living here rent free, eating here free of charge, sleeping in my bed, sleeping on the couch all day, and not helping out around the house. At least when I'm home, I do my own laundry, help my mom with the house work, like doing dishes, and vaccuming, and I even cleaned my bathroom. He does none of that, unless he is forced to do it. It gets really nervewracking because my dad isn't in the greatest health and shouldn't be doing a lot of things, and yet he does them anyway when Justin is fully capable but just too lazy to do them! Like the other day, my brother came home for Christmas from South Carolina, and all Justin had to do was go get him from my grandparents house an hour away. He couldn't even do that without complaining about it. Then it ended up that my dad drove all the way over there by himself to get him. I would have done it myself, but I dont have a car and noone will let me drive theres. So Im out on that one! It's just really frustrating. THen tonight he comes home drunk and thinks its really funny to get on my screen name and start talking to my friends. And its not like he was carrying on a civilized conversation...he was pretending to be other people, like my mom, and asking stupid disgusting questions. Made me angry. Another thing is that he didn't even buy anyone any christmas presents...but yet took all the gifts he got. If I didn't buy anyone a present, I definitely would not accept the ones they bought for me! That made me a little upset!!! Glad I got his present the cheapest I possibly could! Grr!!! Another thing Ive been thinking about a lot lately, is that i have this friend, a guy friend, that I just can't help but want to be with. We've always been pretty good friends, but for some reason I get this feeling that he just doesn't feel me the same way that I feel him. But the scary part of it is, is that myself along with others could see me with this person down the road. They are everything that I've ever said that I wanted in someone. I don't know, but like a wise person once told me, God has someone for me...and he'll show me to them one day! So I'll just be patient...and maybe everything will work out! But on a good note, I got an email from Brandon!!! YAY for that...no longer have to worry about him being upset with me. I think things are going to be ok with that situation!! I knew they would be, we both just needed a little bit of time to cool off!! So that's good!!! My Christmas was ok....i've had better in the present department, but all of my family got together...just the 5 of us...That was really good!!! I think thats it for now!!! Until next time....over and out.......‘Cause I would give everything that I own. I’d give you my love and this heart made of stone. The sun the moon the earth the sky. The motorcycle that I like to ride. I would do anything. I would give everything. To be your everything!!! ~Stereofuse Everything