Senseless Babble

This week is finally over for me. It was such a long week. It just seemed to go on forever. I really need more to do during the week to make time pass by more quickly. I really do wish that I had a job. I just want to work, but for some reason nobody seems to be hiring right now. It stinks. Oh well. I'll find one sooner or later. I have a few big assignments due this week. One paper and a lab report. I guess that isn't too bad, but for me, it's a lot. I don't usually have homework. Oh well.
I've been thinking about him again. Some days I don't care about him, and don't care what hes doing, and there are days when I'm driving down the road and I just want to turn my car and head north and travel that all too familiar path to his drive way. But I don't. I could just pick up the phone and call him but the sound of his voice usually makes me crazy. I miss him. He has such a huge part of my heart, and it makes me sad that things turned out the way they did. But what can I do? Move on is about it. I want to go back to the days when everything was normal. Back in the days when I didn't know what it meant to be "sick" and when I had no idea what a broken heart felt like. I wish I were back in elementary school, when if you held hands with someone they were your boyfriend and that was the end of it, and if it didn't make it through the day, that was ok too. Those were the days. None of this crap of being afraid of comittment and not liking titles. What is that?!?!?!
I miss my brother. It's been forever since I've talked to him! He means the world to me, and I pray every night that God keeps him safe wherever he goes. Especially when he goes wherever hes getting deployed to. I pray God keeps him safe. I'm not sure what I would do if somethere were to happen to him. I'm in a very sentimental mood right now. I'm not real sure why...but I get that way sometimes. But now I think I'm just rambling on. So I'll go do something...maybe some of this homework! Leave comments, if you feel so inclined! Peace!