Life is Good!

Let's see...things have been going really well for me lately. It seems like all the really important things that have been causing me stress have worked themselves out, and I feel really good about it! I think school is taken care of, I've made up my mind on what I want to do, and I've already taken the proper steps to get to where I want to be. The only thing that I need worry about now is the apartment situation. I'm not worried, if God has gotten me this far, I have faith that he will fix that too. So I just need to leave everything in his hands, and be thankful for what he does for me! Anyway, now that I've been in such a good mood lately, let me explain why. My job is great. Seriously, I love the people I work with, they are all really cool, and super super nice. So that is going well, I need to figure out what's going on with the job in Lansing, I haven't been there in like 2 weeks, and I feel really bad about it, but what can I do, really??? This job is closer, it pays almost the same and I'm getting a lot more hours. THey are cutting back on my hours though. Daren informed me yesterday that I take all the hours, even though he makes the schedule, and gave me today off. I was orginally scheduled to work today but I got the day off and hung out with Matt Ayotte, and Beth. IT was cool. For the time being I have weekends off, and I still am putting in like close to 40 hours a week. I'm excited for those pay checks. Another thing that has me excited lately, is a guy. I know it sounds silly, but it's really weird. Like at first it was just a little crush...one of the kind where you like a person you can't really have. But maybe it's not really like that? I'm not sure. We've been flirting with each other every time we work together...and at first I thought it was just sort of a playful thing that happened to make the day enjoyable...ya know? But today we went out to Haithco, me, Beth, and Matt, and I went up and was talking to Daren and Beth and Matt both agreed that there was some tension there....and that were definitely flirting with each other. They confirmed that it wasn't totally one sided. Who knows, maybe there is something behind it. We'll see I suppose, only time will tell. I think the main thing at this point that bring frustration and confusion to my life is my Wes situation. I thought maybe it was over, but last night I made a huge lapse in judgement. I went to Bay City and hung out with him and some of his friends. I think it was a mistake to have done that. I just couldn't tell him no...it's weird, he has his strange control over me and I have a really hard time telling him no. We ended up making out, and I guess maybe I just miss having someone to kiss. That will get me every time, and it's not like I saw him and started making out with him....I tried to resist for so long, and then finally I just had to give in. Sometimes I don't get him. Then on the way home I freaking got pulled over. The cop thought I had been drinking but in reality it was 3:30 in the morning and i had been up since 8:00. I was TIRED. Anyway, the jerk flashed his flashlight in my eyes like 3 times, and then asked me if I thought I could pass a field sobriety test, and when I told him yes, he went back to his car, and I was so afraid he was going to make me do one. THankfully when he came back he just handed me my license and let me go. That would have sucked. Today was great, spent time with friends...so relaxing. Saw him, it was wonderful. His eyes make me smile, and as much as he makes fun of me, I can't help but like him more! OH I want this to work out. I think thats all for now, I need to finish cleaning up this room and then get to bed. Until next time...Over and out!