Tired!

At the current moment I am at the church at 2:34 in the morning and it seems really weird. I am helping to chaperone an all girls lock-in for the youth group. SO far it's not bad but I am really super tired. I've been up for a really long time and I have to work at 9 in the morning. Well in like 7 hours. Yuck!!! God has been doing some really amazing things in my life lately, and I can not express how great it feels to finally have finally found the one piece that has been missing to my puzzle. For so long I searched and searched for something to fill this weird void that I had always had, and then one day it was just gone, and I realized that finally I understand that I can not fix anything on my own. ONly through God's help can I be the person i want to be and have the things I need to get by in this life. So far he has provided me with everything I need and the only thing left that I am waiting for is a loving Husband who is just as devoted to Christ as I am and will love me for who I am. My faults and blemishes included! Sometimes I wonder if he isn't already in my life and I just don't see him as my "future husband," but instead as just a friend. Maybe he's someone I've loved before and hasn't reciprocated the feelings back. Who knows who it is, all I know is that I want him to come to me soon because I am ready to move on with the rest of my life! On a good note, not that any of this has been bad, some of the girls in the youth group aren't as bad as I had one portrayed them to be. One in particular is super super cool and very glad that she just so happened to choose to be in my small group. I am very excited about that. We'll see how the discussion goes in our small group meeting in a little bit. I think I should probably end this now and get back down to the happenings in the family life center! Until next time...Over and out!