You called yesterday to basically say that you care for me but that you're just not in love. Immediately I pretended to be feeling similarly and led you to believe I was ok to just walk away from the one thing that is unyielding and sacred to me. Well i guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it and I'm going to the extremes to prove I'm fine without you. But in reality I'm slowly losing my mind. Underneath the constant smile gradually I'm dying inside. Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly 'cause i don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering. So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night and turn down all the lights and then break down and cry. So what do you do when somebody you're devoted to suddently just stops loving you and it seems they haven't got a clue of the pain that rejection is putting you through. Do you clind to your pride and sing I will survive? Do you lash out and say how dare you leave this way? Do you hold on in vain as they just slip away? Well I guess I'm trying to be nonchalant about it and I'm going to extremes to prove I'm fine without you but in reality I'm slowly loosing my mind. Undeeneath the constant smile gradually I'm dying inside. Friends ask me how I feel and I lie convincingly 'cause I don't want to reveal the fact that I'm suffering. So I wear my disguise 'til I go home at night and turn down all the lights and then I break down and cry. Gonna break ya down, only if ya let it. Everyday crazy situations rockin my mind tryin to break me down, but I won't let it. Forget it, forget I be feelin like you're breaking me down, kickin me round, stressin me out. I think I better go and get out and let me release some stress. Don't ever wanna feel no pain, pain. Hopin for the sun but it looks like rain. Lord, i just wanna maintain. Yeah I can feel the pressures, y'all, but nevertheless Krayzie won't fall. It's over It's endin here. Mariah Carey Breakdown