GOD Is Amazing!

Sorry I've been a little MIA, I've had a hard couple of weeks. Things haven't been going as smoothly as I had hoped they would when I decided to actually work both of these summer jobs at the same time. NOt to mention I was thrown an extremely LARGE curve ball, which throws the whole pictre out of whack even more. I have some major major decisions to make in the next couple of months. But I have faith that GOd will give me the strength and courage to make it through this summer with my head held high, and I will be very successful in the end. This summer is going to teach me a lot about myself. It's also going to teach me discipline and hard work. Both of which I need. My life right now is not how I have ever imagined it would be. Which in reality isn't all that bad. I don't really mind at all. I actually enjoy it, it's like the saying goes, "what doesn't kill us only makes us stronger!" I think its great how God brings such wonderful people into your life. Tonight at cell group, I realized that God has definitely placed some AWESOME people in my life. People that I can turn to when I need a shoulder to cry on or am in serious of someone elses prayer! People I can learn a lot from, whether it be life in general or in my spiritual life! I am very blessed, and I never really saw it until tonight. Anyway, moving on to another subject. I got to hang out with Jessica last night! We had a good time. I'm glad we followed through with our plans to hang out! We went to Bay City and watched Wes's Derby. I had fun I'm sure she did too. We got a chance to have some serious heart to heart talks about boys (which is a whole nother story) and we stayed out until like 2! Well we ended up going a friend of Wes's for a bonfire in which thing started to revert back to last summers ways. I didn't initiate any of it though. Then I talked to Matt who's house we were at and he brought some enlightenment to the whole situation. So we'll see where things go. From what I gathered from Matt, they won't be going anywhere and this by my doings, what Wes thinks has nothing to do with it. Well it does, but not his feelings on our relationship or lack there of. Does that make sense? I hope so. I deserve someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them, and who isn't going to act one way and then tell his friends something else. I deserve much better than this. I'm not saying WEs because he is a good guy, and I dont want to talk bad about him but I deserve better than how he makes me feel. Does that make any sense either? I don't know. HAHAHA. I've decided that everyone around me has good things happening to them, maybe its my time for good things! Don't you think? I DO! If you guys who read this are praying people, say a prayer that everything goes well tomorrow! I could really use it! I think thats all for now. Until next time...Over and Out! How far do I have to go to make you understand I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't keep on giving, go on living with the way things are. So I'm gonna walk away And it's up to you to say how far. There's a chance I could change my mind, But I won't, not till you decide what you want, what you need. Do you even care if I stay or leave? Oh, what's it gonna be? ~How Far~ Martina McBride