Oh What A Day!

Today was a weird day. I was supposed to be up by 7 this morning so that I could get into Saginaw to get my TB test done, and then head to Delta early enough so that I could still get to Lansing at a decent hour to get some work done. Well needless to say that didn't happen! I had set my alarm for 7 and when it went off, I got up and unplugged it. Don't ask me why I did that...I have no clue, but I did. After I unplugged it, I went back to sleep....well my mom came in and woke me up at 9, already an hour behind my original plan. Anyway I got up and around and headed into Saginaw. I didn't get a very good nights sleep because I didn't go to bed until like 12:30-1:00 and then at 3:30ish I got a text message saying that Wes had recieved the one I sent him. Then at like 4:45 I got another message from Wes, asking me about the one I had sent him the night before. So that woke me up and then I layed there thinking about what I had done and couldn't get back to sleep. Anyway, I got to Saginaw to get my TB test done and the lady who did it decided to not go far enough under the skin and the stupid thing bled for like 20 minutes when finally I had to put a band-aid on it. Thankfully I had some in my purse. Then I got out to Delta got my testing done and the lady told me I was going to have to wait until July 1st to do my orientation when the lady I talked to on the phone said I could do it the same day. I was so so angry, but by this time I was so tired of going out to Delta and dealing with the people, I just said forget it and left. WEll it was like 11:45 when I got done so I called Beth and went to hang out with her at the Church for a while. I stopped and got us some lunch and then I hung out with her until like 2. I text messaged Wes a couple of times, and now I think I've made him kind of mad, he hasn't replied to like the last 3 of my messages and I don't think he has any intention of doing so. I think I should have just kept my mouth shut on the whole subject. I couldn't do it though. I wanted to get as much information out of him as I could but that process didn't work very well either! So needless to say I'm farther behind than I was this morning. I'm so stupid some times. That's ok, God is going to get rid of all of my confusion and help to see what is best for me. That is what I need right now in my life and that's all I'm looking for, what's best for me! I'm not sure why, But I love wes, I do. It's not one of those situations where I think I like someone, I know I like him, and I like him a lot! All of his faults and everything, but for some unknown reason, he doesn't even feel remotely close to the same as I do. I guess there is something about me that is so repulsive he can't like me that way. He can't act like he does, but for some strange reason he only wants to be friends but act like more. I mean isn't it strange for a guy who doesnt like someone to encourgae their liking them? I think so, most guys just aren't like that! If they don't want you to like them, they let you know. Wes just encourages it! It's beyond me. God will let me know what is right, and thats all I can hope for! I think thats about all for now...Until next time...Over and Out! See it's burning me to hold onto this I know this is something I gotta do but that don't mean I want to. What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just I feel like this is coming to an end. And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you, I gotta let it burn. Really wanna work this out but I don't think ya gonna change ya I do but you don't think it's best we go our separate ways. Tell me why I should stay in this relationship when I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby. Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with. ~Burn~ Usher