What a freakin' weekend! Sometimes everyone needs a weekend like that! WE didn't really do anything but in the same breath I think its the most I've laughed in a long time! Between Jessica coming back from home and being pissed off, then us drinking so she didn't fall asleep to Bryce and Lou coming down and getting drunk too. I have never seen anyone as hilarious as Lou gets when he drinks. That boy is hilarious! Boy oh boy, as anxious as I am to get out of here for the summer, I am going to miss everyone because next year, things will be completely different! I'm going to enjoy it though, and everyone is invited over to the apartment! You just have to bring us food when you come! Last night I had one of the greatest conversations of my life so far! Bryce and Lou were explaining to me the reasons why guys get a little nervous when it comes to sex. Especially those with no experience! I learned quite a bit, and it made me laugh all at the same time. AS much as I don't want things to be the way they were last summer, I have this gut feeling thats the way they are going to end up! I mean things with Wes are crazy as usual. And as much as I've tried getting over him all this year, it has been a very unsuccessful task. For that I'm kind of angry at myself. I don't understand what keeps me waiting around for him. I guess there is some unforseen reason thats worth it. Wes truly is a good guy, no matter what anyone says. He's just a little inexperienced in the whole relationship department. And I can't really hold that against him. If anything I should stick around to show him that I'm not really going anywhere. We were talking about things last night, Me, Jess, and Ashley...and we've decided that he really is afraid that I'm going to ditch him once I get to school! Obviously after this year, that isn't the case. I've made out with one person this entire year, and that was a one time thing. So it's not like its a big deal. I'm not trying to find anyone else! I have feelings for him and right now its him only. I know that sounds all mushy and stuff, but oh well. I guess I'm in a mushy mood! I guess I'm going to hang out with him for a few weeks and if things seem to be going back to the old ways I'm going to tell him.."look I can't do last summer again! It's either going to change or we really are going to be just friends, but you need to make the decision, I'm not going to do it!!!" Thats the plan, we'll see how well I stick to it! Jess and I decided that our first Cedar Point trip is going to be May 26. We are soo excited! I can't wait, it wont come soon enough!! I curled my eyelashes this morning and I think I seriously messed them up. They are bothering me so much, like it feels like there is something stuck to them and it is driving me nuts! But anyway, that is besides the point. I just want to say Thanks Guys for making this year a blast, and thanks for helping me understand the complicated workings of a guys mind! I really appreciate it! Anyway, I should go do some work since I am getting paid to do it! Until next time...Over and Out! It's undeniable that we should be together. It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never. That basis is need to know, if you don't know just how I feel, then let me show you now that I'm for real! ~Brian McKnight, Back to One~