I'm Sad.

So it finally hit me on my way home tonight that I am no longer employed. Not only that, but I won't see any of the people who have become my friends over the summer. Two in particular. Daren and Martha have become to of my closest friends over the summer and I'm going to miss them. We spent the entire day working together, and then after we went out and got pizza on Daren. He owed us, considering we worked our butts off helping him get everything taken down and cleaned for the end of the season. I had to walk through muck up to my ankles so that I could mark where the big bouy's went. It was by far the most disgusting thing I've done in a long, long time. But anyway, I don't know about things right now. I was kind of excited for the end of the season becuase I thought things with Daren would go somewhere, but now I don't know if they really will or not. He didn't seem to taken aback by it as I was. But I guess I don't really care, if it was supposed to be, it will work out. If not, than whatever I'll find someone better suited for me. I don't know I just kind of said a quick and lame goodbye to the two of them and jumped in my car and came home. Usually I would have hung around for a while and talked to Daren, but not tonight. It just didn't seem right. I dont know why. Who knows. He looked good today. I think it was the tan and his eyes. I'm not sure. I think I'm delirious from all the sun I got today. I don't know. I'm going to the doctors on Thursday this could be the start of something really GREAT! I can not wait. I'm a little bit nervous though at the same time! We'll see how it goes. I have a busy schedule tomorrow. Class all day then a hair appointment at 3, then it's off to youth group at 6:30. Then I have class on thursday, followed by a doc appointment at 3:45 then it's off to state for THursday and Friday nights. Should be good! Until next time...Over and out!