My first two months as a mom have been such a blur. It is such a huge change and it’s kinda like a whirlwind that I’ve been blindly tossed into over night. Some things about motherhood have so far been expected, but I kind of have had to realize how severe they are, especially being a single mother. While so far motherhood is something I enjoy it’s also something that is taking some getting used to!!! This is what I've learned so far:
- I have VERY little time to myself. Everything I do revolves around my son and his needs, including using the restroom. I better get lucky and coincidentally go when he is sleeping or else I'm gonna have to hold it. Taking a shower and brushing my teeth? Forget about it. I have to find the time for these things.
- When I’m hungry the baby comes first. Again I can’t eat unless he is sleeping or is completely satisfied that he’ll quietly sit in his papasan seat or my lap while I quickly stuff my face! Enjoying food is kinda out of the question these days.
- As far as sleeping goes I get in where I can fit it in. If I’m tired with nothing to do at the time I’ll nap while he naps. If I’m sleeping good and my baby wakes up I just can’t tune him out like I would everything else. I must drag my sleepy ass out of bed and tend to his needs no matter how hard it is! Which, for a sleep lover like me who has been deprived the last 5 months or so, is very hard!
- Changing the diapers of a fussy, squirming baby is actually very hard to do! So is bathing and dressing one! My son absolutely hates being naked for any reason.
- Being puked on, peed on, drooled on, sneezed on, farted on and pooped on by another human being no longer disgusts me. In fact I typically smell like a mixture of these things + baby products and it doesn’t even phase me. Although it’s not ideal, I’ve learned to be OK with it lol.
- I have found that my physical appearance matters less and less every day. I can wear the same clothes for days, and only change when I have been puked on so many times the smell is starting to give me a headache! Gross, I know...but oh so true! A week or so ago, I kept smelling toothpaste and baby puke and it was then that i realized I had toothpaste in my hair on one side and throw up on the other!!! That was the first day I felt like a mom!
Despite how all of this seems my son is a good baby and only cries when he really needs something like a change or a feeding or if he just wants me. I have an attached little boy who seems to love his mommy very much right away. Sometimes he just wants his momma and I just want him. And the feeling I get when I look at his pretty face, witness how much he settles down when I scoop him in my arms or the feeling of him tightly wrapping his tiny arms and hands around my neck when I’m putting him to sleep makes all of this “inconvenience” more than OK!!
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