Man, I've really been in a slump lately. I dont know what it is, but whatever it is it needs to hurry up and pass! Not only am I depressed but I'm emotional too. Its weird how often and sporadically my moods can change. one minute i can be as happy as can be, and the next almost in tears. Like tonight, it's weird. I was so happy because this guy that i was in love with all throughout high school sent me an instant message. I had up an away message that said, "And I feel like I'm at an all time low, slightly bruised and broken....", because well thats how i feel right now. and he just sent me a message that said, Aww its ok Michelle, keep your chin up kid! And being that i haven't talked to Jared in forever it just made my day knowing that he cared enough to send me a message telling me to cheer up! And i had been talking to steve-o and i told him what Jared has said and he freaked out on me. This is what he said to me, "The Crowned One (11:41:32 PM): that's crap. i'm sorry, honesty rising. i tried to make you feel better. i told you to not let it get the best of you. he says something generically the same and you feel better. i'm going to bed because i've become a bitch." It honestly made me want to cry because what Steve-o thinks means the world to me, and I know I hurt his feelings, but that wasn't my intentions. Just sometimes he acts like its such a big deal to have to talk to me, and that hurts! Especially when he told me that he looked forward to talking to me every day, what happened to that? Oh well, its probably just a case of the falling to fast and hard for someone that I know i can't have. oh well....who knows. but anyway, im gonna go and maybe when i wake up, all this will just be a dream, and i wont have to worry about it anymore!!! Until the next time...