I Don't Know Why I Feel Bad!

So for a brief moment, I felt really bad about a situation I had with Wes. I kind of felt like I had betrayed him by not saying anything to him about Daren. But to be completely honest, I'm not so sure that I really should. Because there is nothing between Wes and I. As much as he acts like he wants to be more than just friends, I don't think he does. And if he really does, he's wasted too much time trying to make his decision on what to do. So this is what I have to say about it all, This train has left the station. I am going to pursue this thing with Daren. I don't know if anything is going to happen but I think it really might be going somewhere and I don't want the situation with Wes to hold me back if it is. I mean seriously is it really that difficult to admit to someone that you like them? I just get so frustrated with the situation. At one moment everything is all good and peachy and the next I don't hear from him for weeks unless I call him like 5 times a day. That just gets old. I thought maybe by me moving into this new place things would change. I mean seriously there is more than enough opportunity for things to take shape where there isn't anyone against us. But I don't think I've talked to him for more than five minutes since I've been here, which by the way has almost been a week! Like I said before this is it, I'm done, El Finito. I'm really going to give it my best effort to stay away from Wes with an interest of being more than friends. I will definitely always be there for him because I love him to death and he is one of my closest guy friends. I may need to stay away for a while, but I want to do whatever it takes to make this the last time I say all this stuff.
On a good note however, someone finally took over my sublease. IT was just in the nick of time too. I sent in my rent check for them to only send it back to me. SO that is really awesome!!! I guess this all was God's will for me. ME going to SVSU and living here in Saginaw. It all worked out perfectly. I am so excited and I am loving the new place!!!! It has been so cool being out on my own. Maybe one day I'll invite you to come over! It's by invitation only unless your name starts with a D and ends with an aren, and then your welcome to come over at any time. Hahaha. But anyway I think that is all for now. I'll definitely have a lot to write about in the upcoming weeks, with living on my own and all!!!! How exciting! Anyway, until next time...over and out!!!!