What a bad day.....

My day started off really bad....I woke up in the worst mood and didn't really feel like going to work. But unfortunately I had to, I need the money and can't afford not to go in. I wish that my last week and a half would fly by and be over. I don't want to work at the park. It's starting to bring me down and stress me out. Today I think was the worst day I have had at the park all summer. I was just so grouchy and I bit Daren's head off. Now that I look back on it I feel really bad about it. Then as if the day wasn't bad enough...it happened today. The one thing that I have waited for, for almost a month now, happened today and I don't know how to react to it. I don't know how to feel about the situation. It made me sad all day today and it's all I thought about. Once I talked to Martha about it though, I felt better. I'm still not to sure how to feel about it. I wish it were easier to decide on what to do. But oh well. If you are the praying type, please keep my brother in your prayers. He just recently joined the Air Force and he is at his permanent base in Arkansas right now. My mom called me the other day and informed me that he is going to be deployed in December. I'm not sure where yet, because he couldn't tell her over the phone. So we're still waiting to find out where he is going. Just the fact that he is going to be leaving our country and be doing who knows what, is scary enough. And thinking that he could be placed in harms way is scarier. So please just pray that God would keep him safe and alive. Even though I am ready to be done working at the park, I'm really sad that all of my friends are leaving. One of my best friends that I made this summer had his last day today. I'm really sad....he said that he was going to email me and probably give ma few drunk dials. So I am excited that he isn't going to forget about me!!! YAY! I think when Beth and I go up there, I'm going to hang out with him for a while! So excited! oh well..only like 10 more days. I can't wait! But I think thats all for now. Until next time....Over and out!