Randomness...

So I've decided that I am a habitual electricity waster! Haha..seriously I leave lights on and the tv on and everything on. I think it's because I'm here by myself and if I leave the lights on, than I don't feel quite to alone. As stupid as that sounds. But whatever. At least I admit to it. Who knew that getting over someone could be so difficult. It seems like a day can't go by that I am not thinking about Wes. Not constantly maybe, but I definitely think about him once a day. As much as I hate to admit it, I'm pretty sure I think about him more in one day than I do Daren. I think it's supposed to be the other way around. But it's not for me. I wish I knew an easier way of doing this. I've had to go to the Home Depot twice in the past two days and do you realize how hard it is to go there and not want to call him?? Honestly, how can you go to someones place of work and not miss them? Granted it wasn't his exact store...but still...it's The Depot. It's just so hard...and everyday I pray that God will make it easier for me and all this frustration and hurt will go away. And it has gotten easier. I haven't cried over it in a week. Which is really bad, but still I guess I'm making progress. I hate that he can make me cry so easily, and HE'S not even really doing anything to me. It's the fact that he's not around and hasn't called me. It SUCKS!!!! I hate the way this makes me feel, but at the same time...I want to talk to him so so so much! Why are guys so frustrating???? I went home today and hung out there for a while. I was there ALL day. It's the longest I've been there since I moved out. I just hung there, my dad and my uncle built the saw horses for my COOL COOL desk, and I ate dinner. When they were finished with the saw horses...I came back here and put the desk together, not that it took me a long time. Then I put the wrapping paper on it. It's AWESOME! OH and I took some picture in from my house...(they have like 50 thousand roles of undeveloped film) and I got them developed. THey were soo soo old. THey were from like my sophomore year of high school. They even have fat Cameron in them, only she wasn't quite so fat. But anyway. They were really old...and some of them were funny!!! Haha..anyway, I think thats all for now. Until next time...Over and out!